Tuesday, June 5, 2007
Not a pleasant day to speak the least. Day started out terribly. Supposed to meet Claire for mugging session but she got stuck at home due to the rain (yes I know it's the clouds' fault, not yours) so I was alone at CCK. Felt really helpless. Not that I wasn't used to being alone outside, but I hate being alone because I will simply turn into a emo freak and not study. Stayed in Lot 1 Macs alone for a couple of hours, trying to study but turned emo instead (yes blame the rain). Ended up I covered only lecture 1 and 2 for Phy Geog in 4 hours. Not too shabby at all =\
Met up with Weiliang to go town, and we were talking on the bus, trying to find out how many would go. Kinda disappointed at the response, and even worse when I found out only me, nic and weiliang are going. Samantha (remember her?) came back and talked to us for a short while. It wasn't boring though, we're 3 uber fun guys and we did have quite a bit of fun (refer to class blog).
And now I am home,and I am feeling emo again. Damn. I wish I wasn't that emo. I wish I was more outgoing, less shy and hell less emo. But I can't change, and that's me. Never the centre of attraction, never the life and soul of a party, and probably a insignificant figure soon forgotten in 100 years' time. Ok I don't know what I am saying. But just as i was mugging this afternoon alone, lots of questions just popped up into my head. Why are we being forced to study what we don't want, what we don't like and what we don't NEED? I certainly don't plan to be a geographer, a mathematician, a lit teacher nor an bank manager in my adulthood. So why the hell are we studying? Why the hell is our life planned out for us even before we are born? Nearly 20 years of our life has been planned out for us, to study, study, study and that's nearly one quarter of our life. One quarter of our life, we're living for others, not ourselves.
And so, where do we find ourselves?
Look into your heart.
Emo-ed
12:52 AM
